heavy

as time goes by
i wonder why

heart filled with guilt
yet perceives everything as sweet

my guilty pleasure is you
yet you torture me with your words
oh yes, you know you do

letting go
something thats made easy
not by me
but those around

my beautiful nightmare
someone i would......

oh never mind
i'd much rather hold everything inside.

i need a friend

i need me a friend who's gon' be there for me, someone that would see through me,

a friend that'll listen when i have something to share, all my pain and sorrows together we'd bear..
i may sound like a broken record, but true friends are hard to find.

the fake ones are everywhere and are only concerned about the things you wear,
you're always the least on their list,
they'll never assist, but depend on you.


true friends aren't missed, instead in your life they'll always exist,
exit and desist talking to them,
beware and compare like footwear in pair.

take a break for your own sake
don't make a mistake that will cause the outbreak of heartache,
put a seal on things that are unreal,
and watch everything congeal.

your name

every night i call your name

even though i know what youre up to and your game

your sweet carefree attitude makes me sing and call you in every sexy way possible

and i vision you as someone responsible.

when i hear your name i reminisce on the good times we ever had

which in all ramification makes me mad

your soft touch, although not gentle

firm, strong, painful and you knowing im brittle

oh well, knowing you i really dont expect better

and i hope you get to read this bitter sweet letter

your name like the abyss

sounds real sexy but i judged amiss

miss giving you a "no reason kiss"

even when it comes to me you remiss

i would love to go on

but as i sit here thinking of you, it's almost dawn

so my dear for the last time calling your name, i beckon

before all we have is lost and foregone

how i feel at the moment

it's been approximately one year since my last post and i'll try and do something really nice and different this time.


oh well..
nothing has changed
and i'm not too happy about this

the only thing i think about is how to break loose from your hold,
and for some reason i seem to be in chains.

the more i think about leaving you.... the more i seem cold,
but the the things you do, guess what cant take it anymore... my brains.

this journey with you seems like an endless one,
to top that, it is way beyond fruitless.

i understand there's a great difference in age.
but oh well... thats shit, cos im in that range.
honey my silence will expire soon, your next purchase will be my rage.

be it as it may,
my love for you has been led astray,
all thanks to you for being so damn lame and stale.

bored in class

hmmm it's been ages since i came on
well i'm in a very boring microbiology class and i have nothing to do
so i said to myself... fuck that imma write any random shit that pops into my head.
ok i'm done
aint that random after all

A SMILE

I am a girl of so many words
I do things my way and for me that works.


If making me feel bad is inclusive in your plans
Then your offer i will decline.


Telling me things to bring me down
Makes you nothing but a clown.


You always wear a frown
Whenever you see me in town.


When i'm passing you by
Imma make a quick stop and wave saying 'hi'
I know you'd die a little inside.


But then I'll hasten my steps while wearing
A SMILE!

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